Heartache came to visit me but I knew it wasn't ever after.

Erratic much?

2008-02-20T23:57:00.005+08:00

Hey everyone - have been really erratic with my blogging and looks like this coming two weeks are going to be insane. So I apologize for not commenting the way i do normally,hopefully things should settle down soon. I miss not having time for my blog, but i also miss my sister so much :)
Anyways, i am doing good here, i was pretty sick the last few days.I lost my taste bud too.Now the only sickness i have is flu. It is getting better now. I can finally smell ,taste and i have my appetite back too :)

Moving on, I guess i will be going to a technical school where it is located next to Maktab Sain. I guess the name of the technical school is MTSSR. I heard most of the students who are studying there is malay,and one of my friend is studying there too. He said in his class, he is the only chinese.So it may be possible that next time, i will be the only chinese in my class. -.- like wth, you know i cant speak malay right?Hopefully there will be atleast ONE chinese student with me in my class. I applied for National Diploma course, i am not sure how long is the course, but approx 2 years plus i guess?I also applied for three subjects because it is compulsory.Interior design,Property Management and Travel and tourism services. I will just going to study there for temporary because my dad wants me to fill in my time while tuitioning and retaking arts, malay and maths O level. After the results are out, prolly around august, i will leave the school and decide which schools to go again.Hopefully this time, i can pass my maths and malay :/

Hmm, what else? Oh, recently I have a crazy infatuation with words and can be very easily fooled by people who can use them well but sometimes the most wondrous moments in life transpire without any words at all and the effect of that wordless communication is so much more powerful. Sometimes so many things that are so difficult to express, because what you feel is so much bigger than words, can be said through a single glance.That moment and your experience of it makes you realize that words are nothing without meaning and that meaning is not dependent on words at all. They are there to convey the essence of meanings.

OKAY. I SHALL STOP ALL THIS. -.- Dont know why i feel like taking the risks and use deeper words which i am not familiar with. Correct me if my words are being used wrongly. I guess i have been reading too much of this Cambridge International Dictionary of english and english literature books plus articles.Been so addicted to learn new words.Is that a good news or bad news to me?

Okay, this post is long enough. I shall go now. tata :)

Results

2008-01-28T13:15:00.000+08:00

Results are out.Here is the website to access:
http://www.fileden.com/files/2006/6/14/67091/GCEO_NOV07.doc To check for name, i have a shortcut,Just type CTRL+F then your name. See it for yourself. I am not satisfy with my result. I get only 4 o's. I could have get 5 o's.

MY RESULT:ENG/B BM/D GEO/C MAT/D CSC/C ART/X CMM/C
(CSC-Combined Sci, CMM-commerce)

Blame myself for being so careless, My art has no grade is because i sat the wrong paper. :/ I am damn regret now.seriously.really really regret, i could have get 5 o's , you see? Well, unfortunately, my maths and my Malay get D, so obviously i cant study in MD, i am planning to look for colleges in Aust now, cause i want to study designs.

Busy

2008-01-26T02:28:00.000+08:00

Recently, i have been doing quite a lot of runnings,learns how to drive and of course, dentist.Seriously, the dentists here is so rough >< Got once, they caused my gum to bleed.It was so painful, like OUCHHHHHH,but i have no choice cause i need to apply teeth braces and so they have to check my teeths properly. Oh yeah, i did mention that i am going to singapore right? Well, not anymore, because something had happened and somemore,my mom is coming back!! Haha, she been staying in singapore for 3 months,but she comes back here for CNY and after CNY, she need to go back for treatments again. xD and Yeah, been hearing that results is coming out like today or tomorrow or maybe on the 28, see, it is not punctual, really hates it,unlike singapore,atleast they will announce when the results will be coming out. All this been making me so sleepless every night.I guess it will be coming out really soon or even anytime.So to all my friends and people who have been waiting for O'Level results, good luck :D And lastly, i dreamt to go Milano,Italy. :D
I really want to go there badly :/ I want to meet someone special there, i miss her badly. :/

P/s: Manzy, haha, i guess you have invited the wrong email, the email that i am using for my blog is Jo188@hotmail.com.Sorry and invite me again ;) Thanks,babe.

Loves,Jo.

Panic,Nervous.

2008-01-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

I am alright already. Everything is cool :D and yeah, i should just ignore all those criticisms,negative thoughts about me. By the way, there is some bad news that i want to tell to everyone. Guess what? My dad told me that O'level results will be coming out really soon.. thats is on the 25 jan!! Why it is so early this time?? T.T well, i dont know, but normally all this are not punctual.You will always hear rumours that results will be coming out tomorrow, today, or whatever, but not at all.This is just the thing that you cant expect, it is just too sudden. So, get ready anytime from now :D Just incase. I know everyone will be worried, of course me myself too, but try to be optimistic :D Be positive, I been telling myself this since God knows when.

By the way, tomorrow is my dad's party and i should do something else by now. And lastly, my brother. This is the first time i see him so so weak, all he can do is just sleep and drink water continuously. :/ Sighs, poor little boy. He is just ill. Other than that, i dont think there's anything new? Boring~ hahaha, and i am going to singapore on the 22 till 26 ;)

Loves, Jo.

Crazy?

2008-01-16T16:28:00.000+08:00

Recently, i have visited a psychiatrist and of course, through the psycho ward for counselling because i am very stressed and i am just seek for helps and yet, people been asking me why i visited there and all of them thought i am crazy, they even make a big fuss about it lo. Visit a psychiatrist does not mean that you are crazy right? Those people wont just understand. They have been spreading about this to their friends or whoever it is. It makes me really pissed and angry.Overall, I am very dissapointed. I say it one more time, I AM NOT CRAZY, i am just an ordinary person who wants to be happy. Thats all.

Tummy ache

2008-01-13T00:56:00.001+08:00

I had the worst tummy ache ever.I ended up inside the hospital and waited for the doctor and nurses to come, but it took them like 2 hrs to come? It is so stupid, seriously, just now i could not bear it anymore and i nearly give up but at last the doctor and nurses came to me.They injected me to take my blood for test and they applied this medicine water fluid to my hand and i have to admit that it was really painful but it is really effective as my tummy got better and better.I felt damn cold at the same time too. I fell asleep while waited everything to be done. After a while, the doctor came to me and told me that i can go home. Luckily, my health is good,everything is normal.

I am feeling good now:) As usual, i always sleep late and here i am, blogging. Haha, well, everything is fine now.Other than that, i don't think there is anything new.Boring right? haha. Oh yeah, few days back, i just got my hair permed. Everyone were like "Jo, did you just came back from Japan?"I was like -__________-. Emm? I dont understand, why everyone keep saying i look like a japanese. come on, NOT AT ALL LUH. -.- Other than that, yeah, i quite satisfied with my hair but some part of my hair is really dry :/

I am back :)

2008-01-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. I am back to brunei already. :) Just got back yesterday night.Everything is so peaceful and quiet again. Haha, i miss Singapore and my friends there already.They are great to me.I am happy now ;) I have learnt to be more open and accept everything around me. I should be grateful for what i have now, my own happy family and friends who will make me smiles and laughs anytime. :) By the way,i am very happy to see my friends again.:) I am glad that everyone is doing good and in the state of good health ;) Today, me and my good friends went to watch alvin and the chipmunks.

Opinions? This movie is great and adorable, with nice musics too. :) Funny at times, but it is worth to watch this movie :) seriously, the chipmunks is so cute especially theodore. So which character do you guys like? and there is a quote which i really agreed. It is from esther's blog. So i just paste it to here.

"Everybody is a genius. But, if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will spend its whole life believing that it is stupid."

It is very true right? So this is a good quote to share with everyone :) So thats all for now. Recently i get tired easily, so now i have to get some sleep;) Nights everyone!

Much loves,Jo

Hey :)

2007-12-31T16:19:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone! How is everything? I am doing good here, but i miss my friends so so much :/ Everything is so typical, but dull.haha. I have already visited most of the places in singapore, so i kind of satisfied already. ;) Today is already the last day of 2007! Time has really flown the year so fast :/Right now, i am at this cyber cafe/arcade with Ally and her friends. She is playing dota though. hahaha, since i have a good time to surf the net, i might as well take this good chance to update everything. Thanks to my best friend who helped me to update my blog ;) I miss you too luh :) hahaha, oh yess, as you guys know that i will be back on the 3rd of Jan, because i need to go to checkup, so yeah, hahaha, i keep thinking what should i do when i am back to this small little brunei again.Maybe i would take driving license and apply teeth braces? haha. i heard it is painful but i am all ready ;) Excitements is there because i cant wait to see all my friends again! hahaa, oh yes, i bought some presents too ;) kekekkee

Hmm, what else? Nothing much actually, life in singapore is good but living expenses is high, everything also have to be paid, so when you have the chance to go to singapore, never be cashless ;) it is horrible. hahaha, so yeah, just bought a lot of clothes and a few dresses. I love most of the sceneries in there, it is really nice ;) Now it is 4.29 already, later might be out with kee chen and others for steamboat and head to vivo city for countdown! hahaha, many performances and a lot of singaporean stars will be there ;) Since i can't be in Brunei to greet everyone a happy new year, but i will just greet it here. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 ;) Maybe 2008 will be a better year. :)

P/s: To all my close friends, i would like to say thanks for everything, be there with me when i was having a hard time, you know who you are ;) and lastly, i misss and love you guys! <3

i'm fab man.

2007-12-29T01:08:00.000+08:00

hanahcheong here to update this lazy blogger's blog. haha.
actually she aint lazy, just that she's in singapore y'know, where the connection is SUPER LAU YA.
so anyways, she'll be back on the 3rd of Jan due to health problems.
so people, get your party balloons ready and lets all celebrate her arrival shall we?
HAHAHA. so gay.

thenn, we have the how we spent christmas eve and christmas together.
christmas eve was BORING cause she's staying all the way in orchard while im at bedok. far lah.
BUT christmas was good! we spent the day shaving our eyebrows. HAH.
then went to tampines for like what, 5 minutes?
we meet up in changi airport again cause she needs to pass me the candies.

then i had a good ol' last three minutes of nudges and maid-ing and yeah kinda stuffs. =D
its beeen uh, like what? 25- 29? 4 DAYS! ahahha.
but i'll see her soon. like next thurs.
YAY.
i neeed someone to hear my complains you know.
omg, banglas. ewww.
yeah, i gotta go anyways. hahaa.

OMGGGGGGGGG. OMFFFG!
AMERICAN IDOL, JANUARY 16.
PEOPLE PEOPLE, STARWORLD. MUST WATCH!
hahahaha.

p/s. this is like the pinkest blog i've seen. i thought someone HATES PINK so much! (;

One more day

2007-12-03T17:55:00.000+08:00

Today just hanged out with my best friends, i will seriously miss them, like really really miss them in every seconds, haha. Well, you know who you are ;) As i ever mentioned that i am going to singapore right? yes, that is tomorrow, even though i have extended the days, but it just so fast, never thought of that, i am leaving tomorrow,But then,actually just going to stay there for a month, but i make it sound like i am going to stay there like for years! Ha-ha.Well, what to do? All of us have already get used to see each others bah :) Tonight, Irene dear will be coming over <33 I am glad that you are coming over and atleast we still can talk as much as we can ^^ going to miss you too! hehe ;) We still can chat and talk yes? Oh yes, i would like to say thanks to those people who willing to wake up so so early just to send me and hanah off at the airport, cause my flight is at 8am! Thanks guys, i love all of you so much ;)

Take care everyone, i promise i will still chat, talk and webcam with you guys ;) and of course, i will still update my blog,upload more pictures to tell you guys how's life in singapore ;) byeeeeee :)

P/S: Paths, you gotta cheer up yes? I am sorry that i could not really cheer you up, but no matters what, my time is also always dedicated for you ;)You can always share your problems with me ;)Loviewwww :)

Loves,Jo. Left at 6.13pm

Good,old friends :)

2007-11-30T22:41:00.000+08:00

Today, I am out with all my old close friends, Irene ,Kevin , Teck , Kenny ,Ang ,Seng and Larrie .It feels so good to see them again. It had been so long. Some of them just came back from KL for holidays and they changed a lot ;) Turned bigger, taller and chubby or even muscular. Ha-ha. No offense, but it just good ;) By the way, we watched Enchanted today.Obviously, you can see that Walt Disney represents it.

Now, opinion. It is fine I guess, a movie that you can consider ;)If you get to watch it, you will realize that it is a combination of snow white + Cinderella + sleeping beauty.The real world and the animated world collide. Quite unique. But then, there is some part which is exaggerates especially the singing part and funny.The main actress is very beautiful.;) I guess some of you guys know her right? She is Amy Adams if I am not wrong. For my best friend, her eyes is quite aqua-ish ;) ha-ha, I bet you will like it. The storyline is fine too except the last part, I find it hilarious. Okay guys, as you know that normally old fairy tales, got lovers, prince charming and princess luh okay. Of course in every stories, there is some part that the lovers will meet up tragic moments, and normally the prince charming is always the one who save his lover but this one turned out opposite, this one is a girl (main actress) who fight with the evil queen (had already turned into dragon) with a sword to save the person that she love. I mean of course in this world, this does not matter,but this one i just find it funny. haha. Only this part is a bit uneven, but the others, is all good, ending is also very happy. This is a way better than The Last Breath. At least, there is no regret of watching this movie.;)

After movie, me and Irene went to KFC for a dinner while the others is catching on another movie, Hitman. Am supposed to watch with them, but i am lazy. Ha-ha. Took a few shots and Irene sent me home. :) Thanks for everything yes? And of course to the others, thanks too :) Really good to see you guys again. Continue on, today i have been busily preparing some luggage. Sadly, the more i think about it, the day just come nearer and nearer :s. My best friend, she has already started to miss everything around here especially our friends but i will try my best to make her feel better. I also feels the same way like she does. This time, i will get through this by myself. I will.:) On Sunday, i have to do some packing already and the next day, hang out with our friends again before leaving. 3 days from now :/Time just passed so fast.

P/s: Best friend, I can’t wait to see your hair ;) For sure you look very gorgeous. Ha-ha, no surprise for me cause I am going to your place TOMORROW. wakakakakaka, cant escape. ;) And Irene, i will treat you for a dinner, no rejection ;) and I will miss you too.<3

Loves,Jo. Left at 12 am.

Surrprise party :)

2007-11-29T18:54:00.000+08:00

Few days back,everyone have been so busy about proms and micko's surprise birthday party. I heard about the prom and i can see right on everyone faces that it was such a disaster.Afterall, it is worth for me that i did not go. Lol. Then, micko's surprise birthday party, it was held at my place yesterday. :) Before that, we got everything that we need, and at night, all of us went together to my place but then we let paths and micko walked from the simpang to my house, so that we have our own time to get everything ready to surprise ;) I can see that everyone is really happy :) I hope yesterday was a great day to all of us :) Pathetic, to the guys, they did really had their hard time to settle the bbq stuffs especially starting a fire and make those charcoals to burn. It really took a long time to really cook our foods and all of us got so hungry, but then, we still get to eat together like a big happy family! haha, and yeah, we did not give the water balloons surprise to the guys, and we wasted it! :/ We were so so tired.Today, me and my best friend got rid of those water balloons, she threw it one by one from the balcony while i poked them one by one by knife :) She was not happy cause i poked most of her balloons out and i make her wet! HAHA, but then she got her sweet revenge by bathing me with water. I dont know what to say but just to give this *pissed+grinned+big smile face*, You wait :) I will get you really soon ;)

Oh yeah, i also realized that me and my bestfriend are leaving soon! I have extended the days already,but the time still passed so fast. We are going to miss our friends especially the close one! sighs, 4 days from now.I hope i can spend more time with them! and micko, he said i look so alike like his elder sis but yeah, just thanks for everything :) Thanks everyone :)

Loves, Jo Left at 7.15pm

Hey!

2007-11-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

As i mentioned that i am going to change my blog and so here it is.I am lazy to find a new skin for it,so maybe simple one is fine too :) Oh, i don't know why i name my blog link as fluffer-nutter -.- Stupid name huh? By the way, since am not going to prom anymore and so i spend the night by baking cookies. Oh oh,now i will show you the cookies that me and paths bake on that night!

Bad huh? Haha, well, that day we did not bake it seriously, so we simply bake it and this can be so called as "The cincai flat cookie",it tasted fine,but it still cant compare with the second one.Second attempt of mine,all by myself this time!Lets see again..
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This is before! How about after?

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So what do you think? It circle right!Amazingly,it turned out well.It is a good idea to use those round jelly tray to bake cookies,but then,it is more crispier to bake it on those shiver shining tray ;) Haha and it taste much better than the previous one. I bake too much of it, so anyone want to share it with me? :D

Loves,Jo. Left at 10.40pm